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Every Year After S01e07
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00:11Just because I'm not enough for you
00:25Doesn't mean I'm not enough
00:37What the fuck were you thinking?
00:40What happened to we're never going to tell Sam?
00:49I had to tell him
00:50Why? So you could ruin his life?
00:53No, he don't understand
00:56He came to me and had broken up with Taylor
00:59He was talking about second chances
01:02He ended things with her because of me
01:03I couldn't let him do that without knowing the truth
01:06If he has any chance of happiness with Taylor
01:09So then I'm just collateral damage
01:11I know how complicated this makes your relationship
01:13Do you actually?
01:14Because I'm pretty sure Sam's never going to forgive me
01:16You swore this was going to stay between us
01:19I am so sorry
01:21I really am
01:22But I just need to know
01:25Is Sam okay?
01:27If you truly care about his well-being
01:29You'll go back to Seattle
01:31Today
01:34You're fucking selfish, Percy
01:35But I'm not sure
01:38If love hurts
01:41Now
01:51We're cool for the summer
02:04I've never been happier
02:07I can't believe this is going to be our whole summer
02:10I can't believe you got dad's boat working again
02:12Isn't that hard really?
02:13Just a few repairs here and there
02:15I know it looks like shit from the outside now
02:17But I figure we sand it down and put on a fresh coat of paint
02:19Yeah, we're here to help
02:20Right, Sam?
02:28Uh, guys?
02:29What's happening?
02:30Oh, shit
02:36Okay, maybe I didn't fix that's boat
02:38Yeah, what gave you that idea?
02:40So we're trapped out here?
02:42Well, good thing we got oars
02:45Ready to get your workout on?
02:47I'll be coxing
02:50You said cock
02:51When will you ever grow up?
02:53Hopefully never
02:55All right, come on
02:56All right, put your back into it, boys
03:04I'm guessing the engine's flooded
03:06I'm gonna go get some dry spark plugs
03:07I'll be back in a minute
03:10That's some impressive rope action
03:13You are easily impressed
03:15Cleet hitch is pretty much day one full of stuff
03:18How lucky am I to have a boyfriend who is both hot and smart?
03:23Yeah, you are very, very lucky
03:25Master of maritime knots
03:27Full scholarship to Stanford
03:30Valedictorian
03:30How does one address a boat expert?
03:34Valedictorian
03:34Captain
03:35Oh, so Captain Valedictorian
03:37No, no, no
03:37Captain's just fine
03:39But you still love my little old UW State School self
03:42When you're hundreds of miles away at fancy Stanford?
03:45Always
03:53I can't believe this is our last summer before college
04:01We need to make it epic
04:03And revisit all our greatest hits
04:05I think we start with a rewatch
04:07Of the entire Halloween series
04:08But this time we start with the H2O timeline
04:12You hate this idea?
04:14No, no, no
04:15I think it's great
04:15It's epic for sure
04:19Okay, something's going on with you
04:24So, Spell, what's up?
04:27I got into that summer intensive
04:31No way
04:33Okay, I'm officially changing your boyfriend position
04:35From hot and smart to hot and genius
04:38Didn't they only have room for like 10 people?
04:40Yeah, and I get like 6 hours of college credit
04:42I need you to get in
04:44I'm so proud
04:47The only thing is it starts in 2 weeks
04:51Wait, for how long?
04:54For the whole summer
04:56Hold up
04:57So
05:01So you're telling me in 2 weeks
05:04You're leaving for good
05:05And we won't see each other until winter break
05:07Maybe Thanksgiving
05:08I know your parents said they might want to come into town
05:105 months
05:10Yeah, but we still have 2 weeks
05:13Look, we can fit everything in on your list
05:15How long have you known about this?
05:20I found out end of April
05:21So for the past 6 weeks
05:23You've been hearing me talk about all the things we were going to do
05:26And you've been pretending
05:27I wouldn't say pretending
05:28But you knew they weren't going to happen
05:30Yeah, I guess I did
05:31It kind of makes me feel stupid
05:36I should have said something earlier
05:37But you were so excited and cute with all your ideas
05:40I didn't want to ruin what little time we had left
05:41So you ruined our last 2 weeks together instead?
05:44Cool
05:44I also sort of knew you might react this way
05:46Oh, so you're blaming me for you not telling me
05:49No, I was just dreading telling you
05:51Look, I know we don't have the entire summer
05:53But I promise we will make these next 2 weeks as epic as possible
05:5920 minutes max and we'll be back on water
06:03Yeah, maybe tomorrow
06:08Finally told her, huh?
06:23I'm really going to miss you
06:26I promise you I'm going to miss you even more
06:29I don't think that's possible
06:33Hey, we'll FaceTime every night
06:36And text
06:37I'll even record all my lectures
06:38So you can pretend like you're there with me
06:40The perfect bedtime stories
06:42I'm going to be asleep in mere minutes
06:44I don't know
06:44Organic chem sounds pretty riveting
06:46I mean, the structural properties
06:48Of carbon-containing compounds
06:49Come on, right?
06:55Hey, we're going to talk so much
06:57You're going to think I'm right next door
06:59Except you'll be 9 hours away
07:08Why does this goodbye feel so final?
07:12Hey, look at me
07:16We got this
07:19Okay?
07:33I'll say goodbye my own way
07:36I can't show my face at the funeral
07:38Charlie's right, it'll just complicate things
07:41Since when does Charlie Florek decide what you do?
07:44He doesn't, I think he's right
07:46Look, if you don't want to go to the funeral
07:48I get it
07:49We can leave whenever you want
07:51Thank you
07:52But what happened between you and Charlie
07:54Is not just on you
07:55Charlie was a part of it too
07:56Look, he
07:57He probably leaned in first to kiss me
08:00And then even if the kiss didn't even
08:03Leaned in to kiss you first
08:04Is, I'm just saying
08:08It's probably his fault
08:09You okay?
08:11About the
08:12Geordi of it all?
08:15Yes
08:16Sure
08:16Yeah
08:17I
08:18I don't know
08:20What's happening with me
08:21If Charlie hadn't walked up
08:23I think my almost
08:25Kiss would have been not so almost
08:27Are you
08:30Into Geordi?
08:33Maybe
08:35I don't know
08:36No, no, I'm not
08:37I can't be
08:37I barely know
08:38No, no, I'm not
08:40Okay
08:41Well
08:43Coming from someone who
08:44Made a rash decision
08:46That affected the rest of their life
08:47Just
08:48Take a beat
08:50Before you blow up
08:51Your relationship with Drew
08:55I am nothing if not rational
08:57Beat happening in perpetuity
09:01I don't want to talk about this anymore
09:02No
09:03No, I don't want to talk about this
09:05I
09:06Let's just talk about you
09:08I prefer to be the cross-examiner
09:10In this relationship
09:11Yeah, of course you do
09:14Charlie is acting
09:15Like you're the bad guy here
09:16And it's not fair
09:19I hate that he won't have made his part in this
09:20I'm not sure he can
09:21It's too painful
09:22For who?
09:24Percy
09:24You cannot leave here
09:25Without telling Charlie
09:25What he needs to hear
09:26What is the point?
09:28I just want to forget all about Charlie Florek
09:31No
09:32No, that's one of the reasons that you're here in the first place
09:35Your whole life was torn up by this
09:37While he went off and made a shit ton of money
09:39With a good job in a gorgeous apartment
09:42The watch that he wears is 50k
09:44While you have spent the last decade stagnating in a dead-end job
09:47With hot but painfully stunted hookups
09:50In a shitty four-floor walk-up
09:51Hey, my apartment's cute
09:54The point is
09:55You have lived with regret for the last ten years
09:59Maybe confronting Charlie will help with some part of that
10:01Help you move on, get unstuck
10:03What do you want me to do?
10:05What, yell at him on the day of his mom's memorial?
10:08No!
10:08I want you to yell at him today
10:09Tomorrow we're gonna be gone
10:11And you cannot let him push this false narrative
10:14If it were me, I would rip him a new one
10:21You know what?
10:25I will
10:27Yeah?
10:27I'm gonna yell at him
10:28And then I'm gonna leave here with my head held high
10:30Or at least less filled with shame and regret
10:33Good, good
10:34Mm-hmm
10:35Okay, I'm gonna
10:36I'm gonna go get your stuff from Delilah's room
10:38And then I'm gonna pack the car
10:40Okay
10:41Okay
10:42Um, oh, just, uh, tread lightly
10:46She was pretty fragile last night after Whit kicked her out
10:52Good morning
10:54Um, hi
10:55Please come in
10:58I feel like I'm, uh, walking to a Jordan Peele film
11:01Um, there's no basement in here, right?
11:04You want an espresso?
11:06Whit had this shift from Milan
11:08And it was, like, one of his favorite things
11:09And now it's mine
11:12Uh, I actually just came to get Percy's stuff
11:15Are you, are you okay?
11:18I am
11:21Making myself okay
11:23Right
11:23Oh, you got the cups, too
11:25Good job
11:26Thank you
11:28Learned through careful observation
11:31My dad was married three times
11:33So I've seen every variety of post-divorce meltdown
11:35That's helpful, I guess
11:37Oh, beyond
11:37First was my mother
11:38She fell apart
11:39Cut all her hair off
11:40Gained 20 pounds
11:41And I'm pretty sure he's never had sex again
11:43Rough
11:43Mm-hmm
11:44Yes, and that will not be me
11:47Of course not
11:47Number two
11:48Went scorched earth
11:49Bashed in the windows of his mint condition
11:521967 Porsche Spyder
11:54Wow
11:55That's very Britney Spears
11:57I found it delightful
11:58I agree
11:59And then wife number three
12:03Masterful
12:04Mm-hmm
12:05Just stuffed her anger and sadness and hatred
12:09Just way, way, way, way down
12:10Oh, that's healthy
12:11Always in a full face of makeup
12:13Clad in tasteful clothing
12:15With just a hint of sexiness
12:16And it drove him crazy
12:17That she seemed like she was doing better without him
12:19And you know what?
12:21What?
12:21She walked away with half of his money
12:23The house in Bellevue
12:25And both dogs
12:27Wow
12:29So if I just keep it together like Shannon
12:31I think it was
12:33Sharon
12:37Shonda
12:37I don't
12:38If I keep it together like her
12:40I'm golden
12:42Another espresso?
12:43Yeah, thank you
12:51I, uh
12:53Pulled out some of dad's old ties
12:59Maybe we could both wear one to the memorial tomorrow
13:02I think mom would have liked that
13:10I know you might never forgive me
13:12But I need you to know that I did not set out to hurt you
13:17My whole life was spent trying to protect you
13:20And
13:21I blew it all up in one night
13:24Everything you're thinking about me
13:25I've thought of myself
13:26Only worse
13:32So you're just gonna ignore me?
13:33Yes, I am
13:35Jordy said I could stay at the motel until after the funeral
13:37No
13:38Don't do that
13:39This is your home
13:40You were the one who always came back and took care of mom when I...
13:43Selfishly lived your life exactly how you wanted no matter who got hurt
13:48Like you always have
13:52I'll go
13:54Good
14:13Hey
14:16Uh, I came by to see if you needed help setting up for the memorial
14:23Is everything okay?
14:24Yeah
14:25Fine
14:26Perfect
14:28Okay, because you just seem like
14:29Like someone who's looking for the teal tablecloth that I ordered for your mother's memorial
14:32Yes
14:33Can you look in that box, please?
14:35I think they're on the table
14:37Those are aqua
14:38Are those not the same color?
14:39No, they're not
14:40To a discerning eye, they're very, very different
14:44Okay, look, I appreciate everything you're doing here
14:46But I wouldn't stress
14:46I think those are just fine
14:47They're not fine
14:50Just details are very important
14:52And I ordered teal, so
14:55Hey, I think maybe you need to relax for a second
15:01Come sit down
15:08Oh, I had no idea
15:09That must
15:10Yeah, that must really hurt
15:13You know, when my dad died
15:14All I wanted was to be a cardiologist
15:17So I could fix people's hearts
15:18But
15:20After all the studying
15:21I finally realized that
15:25You can't really save someone from heartbreak
15:28Nope, you can't
15:30I had worked so hard
15:32To forget about Percy
15:33To get out of Barry's Bay
15:35But
15:38You know, I really think that I was just
15:41Trying so hard not to admit to myself
15:43That this
15:45Big adult life that I had sacrificed so much for
15:48Just
15:49Wasn't working
15:51So I threw myself into taking care of mom
15:53And I don't regret it
15:56Obviously, I'll always cherish the time I had with my mom
15:58But
16:00I do think that
16:01It was a little bit of a noble excuse to ghost the rest of my life
16:05Well, ghosting is kind of your M.O.
16:09I had a front row seat to your breakups with Percy
16:11All of them
16:14Yeah, you did
16:17She took it really hard, Tim
16:29We were supposed to have the whole summer
16:31And now it's just gone
16:34You're being dramatic
16:35I can see why you and Sam work
16:37And you still have the whole summer
16:39It's not with him
16:40Yeah, I'm stuck with you
16:43Tragic
16:43But this is my last summer
16:45Before I have to put on a suit
16:46And rot in some corporate office
16:48That'll hopefully pay me a fuckton of money
16:50I'm not gonna waste it
16:51Watching you mope about Sam
16:56Empathy's really your strong suit
16:59I'm just saying
17:01Don't let him ruin your summer
17:03Or mine
17:14You need to do something very un-Sam-like to get out of your funk
17:20Why don't you help me fix the boat
17:25Yeah, manual labor's definitely not Sam's first choice in summer activities
17:31Cool
17:31You'll be here tomorrow at 8am
17:33I didn't know your species could function before noon
17:35Only for you, Purse
17:39I have to go to a clan bake tonight
17:42Oh, a clan bake
17:43Where are we, the Hamptons?
17:45Yeah, I know
17:48These Seattle tech girls are throwing it
17:51I didn't have the heart to tell them that up here we're all about the oysters
17:53Well, we all know you don't have a heart, Charlie Florek
17:57God damn it
18:10How'd you even find me?
18:13Tried calling and I went straight to voicemail
18:16Figured this is where I'd find you
18:18Why are you even here?
18:20We have nothing more to say to each other
18:21Well, that's just not fucking true, is it?
18:24You may have nothing more to say, but I do
18:28You know what?
18:30I don't want to hear it
18:30You know what?
18:31You don't have a choice
18:33Percy, just go
18:34No, I'm gonna say what happened
18:37Shut
18:40Fuck
18:41Wait, wait, it still has that outdoor lock thingy only?
18:44Mm-hmm
18:45So we're locked in here?
18:47You mean you locked us in here?
18:50Don't you dare blame me for this
18:52Yeah
18:53No, I'll see you in the keys
18:55Thanks, Liam
18:55Okay, bye
18:57Uh, I just closed $40 million worth of business
19:01Congrats
19:02Yeah
19:02Uh, we bonded over our mutual love of fishing
19:05You mean what you did for the first time yesterday?
19:09Yeah
19:09Turns out that having interests outside of work is actually an advantage
19:13Like, maybe there's something to this work-life balance thing
19:17You want work-life balance so you can get more work
19:20Exactly
19:23You're leaving?
19:25Oh, uh, yeah, no, I can, I, I, I got it
19:29Yeah, I was going to combine a bit to check out
19:32You can't
19:34I can't
19:34No
19:35Why?
19:36Oh, did Percy already do it?
19:38No
19:39Uh, yeah, okay
19:41Jordy, about last night
19:43Yeah, uh, no, it's not about that
19:44It's about your final task of the official Jordy Worth Lake Live seminar
19:50Well, tasks are my happy place, as are seminars
19:53Mm-hmm, assuming certificates of completion are also your thing
19:57Maybe with a little bit of calligraphy and maybe a goat seal
20:00Okay, what is the final task?
20:02You gotta jump in the lake
20:03Oh, no
20:04No, no, I, I, I don't do water that is below 95 degrees
20:08Can you give that to me in Celsius?
20:09You know, I may have a, uh, brilliant legal mind
20:13But, uh, no, I could not give you your temperature if my life depended on it
20:16Suffice to say, though, I don't do water that's warm
20:19It has to be scalding hot
20:20You know, that certificate might even come with some sort of frame
20:23Hmm, it's tempting
20:24You know you want to
20:28Uh, maybe
20:29The lake is calling
20:30Me, you, the water
20:33Just us
20:34No distractions
20:40Hey, uh, Delilah
20:42Jordy and I were just talking about going to the lake
20:45Would you want to join us?
20:47The more the merrier, right?
20:50You should just come with us
20:51That's a very kind offer
20:53No, I have a lot of organizing to do
20:55I have to get more hangers for my more delicate fabrics
20:57Although I agree that the hangers here are subpar
21:01Because, well, they are
21:02You should just come with us
21:08Okay, yeah
21:08I'll just get my bathing suit
21:12Great
21:16Help! Hello!
21:18No one's coming, you know that, right?
21:19You could at least try calling someone
21:22With what service?
21:26Help!
21:28What the hell's that, Ernie?
21:29Front door
21:29What the fuck are they doing?
21:31I'll find out
21:34Oh, man, yes
21:37Oh, no, no, no
21:38That is, that's beyond disgusting
21:40How are you going to be a doctor
21:41If you can't watch someone get their face eaten off?
21:43Okay, that is not in the purview of a cardiologist
21:46This is pretty much a face-eating free zone
21:49Hey, uh, Derek, hold up
21:50Did you finish that staff problem, Seth?
21:53It's gnarly, right?
21:55Hey, uh, I gotta go talk to my buddy for a sec
21:57Can we finish this tomorrow night?
21:59Yeah, sure
22:00Although you might have to
22:07Hello?
22:12I got your black, extra-hot coffee
22:16Do you realize this is the order of a 75-year-old man?
22:20Shh
22:21Caffeine first
22:22Talk later
22:23Okay, but it's like third-degree burn-inducing hot?
22:27Mm-hmm
22:28It's just how I like it
22:31All right
22:33You ready?
22:34Yeah
22:36Socket wrench
22:36It's the one with the round
22:37I know what a socket wrench is
22:42You're a cool girl
22:43Thank you, I know that, too
22:52It's over
22:54It's over
22:55I'm circling these boxes
22:57Got my brain and this hunger
23:00I'm feeling something rotten
23:02Last time I saw you
23:05Said what's up
23:06And pushed right through
23:07Then I tried to catch you
23:10But we're always on the move
23:12Now it's over
23:14We're sober
23:15Symptoms of the culture
23:17And the night ain't getting younger
23:20Last cause around the corner
23:22Feeling kind of tilted
23:24And I'm pouring out the truth
23:27Just fading out these talkers
23:29Cause now all I want is healing
23:32Saying
23:36Hey, it's all right
23:41Yeah, it's all right
23:46Yeah, it's all right
23:50It's all right
23:57Hey, Sam
23:58Leave a message
24:02Let me guess
24:04My doofus brother isn't answering the phone
24:06No, I was just calling my mom
24:08Oh, really?
24:10Mm-hmm
24:10Isn't she teaching a seminar today?
24:13Okay, fine, I'm pathetic
24:14You're not pathetic
24:15He is
24:17He's just
24:19Really busy right now
24:20Too busy to call or text?
24:22Sometimes
24:22And what's the ratio for
24:24I can't talk now
24:25To not talking at all
24:27Pretty high
24:32Seriously, has he spoken to you about me
24:34Or
24:35About what's going on?
24:37Come on, you have to know something
24:39Like at least
24:41Just from being a guy
24:46I don't know what's going on with him
24:49I don't know what's going on in Sam's head
24:52But he shuts down when things get hard
25:00But I'll be gone
25:05All our friends will move away
25:09And they're going to better places
25:15But our friends will be gone away
25:27Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.
25:36Been talking about the way things change.
25:45And my family lives in a different state.
25:54Then we will not relate.
26:02Ah!
26:03Fuck!
26:05No!
26:06No!
26:07No!
26:08No!
26:08Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.
26:13Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.
26:24Rivers and roads, rivers and roads, rivers till I reach you.
26:34God, how the hell?
26:35Get out of here.
26:36You know, at some point, Chantal will realize I never came back, but that could be ours.
26:40Yeah, Sam doesn't give a shit where I am. No one does.
26:42Oh, boo-fucking-oo.
26:45You have nobody because you're a selfish asshole. You did this to yourself.
26:48I did this? You did this? You happy now?
26:51No! I will not let you do this to me.
26:55I may have shut that door today,
26:57but how we got here, that's on both of us.
27:01I've spent the last ten years beating myself up,
27:04and I sure as hell, I'm not going to...
27:15I'm not going to...
27:18Perth?
27:21Perth, are you okay?
27:28What's happening?
27:30Are you having a heart attack?
27:34Help! Somebody help us!
27:38Help!
27:41Damn it!
27:44Okay, just breathe.
27:48I got you.
27:49I got you.
27:54I can't.
27:56I can't.
27:57I actually don't think I've ever really been in the lake before.
28:02How is that even possible?
28:04Hmm?
28:04You've been coming here for years, right?
28:05I basically only really waded in,
28:07because I wanted to seem like the cool, fun girl,
28:09but my priority was looking cute for Charlie.
28:14Well, and having wet hair wouldn't have accomplished that.
28:16I also don't think that any of my bathing suits can actually get wet.
28:18They're strictly decorative.
28:21Yeah, um, I have a rule where I don't swim in places where I can't see the bottom.
28:25Yeah, it's a lake.
28:27I understand that.
28:28I just don't know what's under there, and it's murky, and murky scares me,
28:32which is why I like the law, because it's clear-cut.
28:34Yeah.
28:38Well, I'm going in.
28:42Oh, and he's, uh, he's off.
28:47We're not really doing this, right?
28:52Screw it.
28:57Yes!
28:58No!
28:59Well, you gotta come all the way in, otherwise you'll have to count.
29:01I'm scared!
29:02Come on, you too, Chantal.
29:04Yeah, you better!
29:06Fine.
29:12Oh!
29:17Oh, my God, how did you just do that?
29:24Skid into the water.
29:27Are you ready?
29:28No!
29:28Yes, go on.
29:29On the count.
29:29On the count.
29:30Come on.
29:31On the count.
29:31One, two, three.
29:38Whoo!
29:43Delilah?
29:44Are you okay?
29:53You sure you're okay?
29:54Uh, yeah.
29:55I just need to find my phone.
29:56I'll catch up.
30:03Well, that was a delightful afternoon.
30:06Almost as delightful as that moment in negotiation when the lawyer across the table realizes that
30:10I have him by the balls, and then he caves.
30:13I think I'm glad to hear that.
30:15Yeah, you would be if you were my client.
30:17Okay, so where's this, uh, certificate that you told me about?
30:20Well, do you want better?
30:21How about we go get drinks?
30:25Dee, you okay?
30:29Hey, what's wrong?
30:33stepmother number three actually um she ended up in rehab and her name was siobhan it wasn't
30:41shannon or sharon it was siobhan and i i don't know i just i should have remembered that because
30:46she deserved a lot better i should have remembered it come on let's get you back to your room
30:57i really don't know what i would do without you jordy come on you just have a golf partner worthy
31:02of you
31:37hey it's me
31:38i think we need to talk
31:47you sure you're okay yeah i'd offer you some water but
31:53i don't have anything in here i'll be okay what just happened
32:01panic attack do you get those often often enough they started after i we ruined everything
32:19it was both of us i'm sorry that i wanted to just blame you i guess i just didn't
32:23want to admit my part because then i'd have to admit why i did it
32:30why did you beside the fact that you've always been the coolest girl i know
32:36three two one
32:39he lives
32:45we did it
32:46yeah
32:48tomorrow we'll set her free hey should we smash a ball of champagne on the hall
32:52fuck yeah
32:55you know most people wouldn't have stuck with this all summer
32:58yeah well i'm not most people
33:00no you're not
33:03you know this has ended up being a really good summer
33:18percy i've been thinking about you so much
33:21but this summer's been hard when we talk i can hear your disappointment in me i hate that i hate
33:27disappointing you but i have to succeed here and i need to focus this is so much more challenging
33:33than i thought so i think it's best if we stop talking otherwise you'll be all i think about
33:38i'm so sorry i thought i could handle it
33:45you know what i'm doing
33:45sam's phone
33:46who is this
33:47uh joe who's this
33:49i'm sam's girl
33:51where's sam
33:52he just went to get out of some beers he'll be back
33:55just give him this message for me
33:58tell him this is percy his ex-girlfriend and you can't break up with someone over fucking email
34:08when sam hurt me i would lash out i would kiss other boys shove a new boyfriend in his face
34:17sleep with his brother
34:21i did this to you because i was too insecure to stop beating yourself up we made a terrible mistake
34:30and i'm still trying to figure out why i did it
34:34was i jealous of sam of what the two of you had and that i couldn't truly commit to anyone
34:43i don't know and i might never know but one thing i am clear on
34:50is that this was not your fault because you weren't the only one who was there that night
35:10you're never gonna believe it but i actually got the radio to work
35:15oh shit
35:19what happened
35:24sam broke up with me
35:39well i'm in wow cheers
35:51you know what gets me
35:52i mean he robbed me of my last summer
35:59our last summer
36:03i know he's my brother but fuck him for that an email breakup i mean that is a total cowardly
36:09dick move
36:12you deserve better and when he's back in town i'm gonna kick his ass
36:16fuck him
36:17you know what if it wasn't for you i would have spent this entire summer
36:22obsessing over him
36:24parsing every email checking every text
36:28checking my phone constantly
36:30so thank you
36:33for saving me from myself
36:37i try
36:39no really i had fun
36:43you're fun
36:45i mean
36:47it's kind of my thing
36:48yeah you're annoyingly good at it too
36:54sam and i
36:56we weren't fun
37:00we used to be
37:04politely
37:05politely everything's been so heavy and serious
37:08summer and serious should never be used in the same sentence
37:11agreed
37:12this summer for the first time in a long time i remembered what it was like to just
37:18be here
37:22and to be fun
37:25i'm glad
37:32i'm glad to
37:38so thank you
37:43saving my summer
37:50percy
38:18i love the next morning
38:31pretty much didn't come back for years
38:35i missed so much time
38:37with sam
38:43and my mom
38:46sorry
38:50i just didn't know how to cope
38:53so i threw myself into work
38:55and convinced myself that
38:58if i supported sam in his dreams that
39:01it would make up for what i did
39:05i found it pretty hard to cope too
39:09that's why my parents sold the house
39:12what happened
39:14i
39:17i don't know
39:18i don't
39:19know
39:24i started having these
39:27episodes where i felt like i couldn't breathe
39:37and then
39:39my mom had these pills and i thought maybe if i
39:43took a bunch
39:44i wouldn't
39:45feel so much
39:49so
39:49i
39:51i
40:02my parents were terrified they thought
40:05this place was bad for me
40:07you know
40:07dangerous
40:11this place
40:13or us
40:18i guess both
40:19you know
40:20so we left
40:21but the panic never left
40:26and i guess it's because i never really
40:29dealt with what i
40:31did
40:32i never
40:33brissy
40:34you have to forgive yourself
40:38how could i ever forgive myself when i know sam never will
40:42how could i ever move on when i love him
40:46i'm always gonna love him
40:48okay
40:49okay
40:49it's okay
41:05i'll be
41:07stop
41:09i'm always gonna love you
41:18oh
41:19i'm
41:19i'm
41:20I will try to love you more with a habit
41:25Until the sun will move
41:27My hands will love to hold your step
41:32If I don't want to hold my heart
41:41Home
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